Training

January 22nd, 2010

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Wow, what a day. When it boils down to it, I really think today was one of those ‘training days’ for me. When it finally dawned on me, I had to laugh about it, and my outlook on all that was happening suddenly changed.

I hate having to call off work for any reason, and so even through battling Pertussis {whooping cough} this entire month and a very painful run in with flax seed this week, I have been at work every day.

When I arrived at work today, I had no idea that we were going to be two people down, and that the owner of the store was going to come to work. My shift today was suppose to be my short one of the week, with me leaving at 11, but when I saw that the co-worker who was to be there till 1 had been one of the two absent, I knew it would not be long until I was asked to stay. Sure enough. Before 9 in the morning I was approached by my boss to cover most of the shift, vacant due to a sick call. Because I was expecting it, I was not angry, but the irony was not lost on me. Still sick, I was being asked to cover for someone else not feeling well.

Before getting sick with my flax seed reaction on Tuesday, my plan had been to stop by my boss’ house with a surprise that had arrived in the mail that day. Not able to manage a visit to their house while they were home and I was free, I had decided to forget trying to get it to them off the clock and instead took it in with me this morning.

The irony grows.

I was asked to cover for someone, and then was going to give a gift to the one asking me to work more! As I told my boss, I was rewarding him for punishing me! :D

Throughout the rest of the day I was encouraged more and more that I had done the right thing by NOT being angry, but agreeing to stay even though I had really been looking forward to my 11 o’clock put out time!

How is this a training day, you ask?

This is my mission field training. My little China babies are not going to know or be able to care if Jie Jie is not feeling well today and would really rather sleep in! They are still going to need to be loved and cared for. And I am going to have to be able to work through being tired, ill, sad, lonely, and hurt {emotionally}.

And even Scripture tell us to bless them that curse you. Now, I am not saying that I am persecuted at work, or that it was a curse, or that it is my prison! However, my mission field is not only on the other side of the world. While it might seem a smaller scale, here is also my field, and I have to be able to show Christ in everything I do at home as well. So though it is a much smaller scale, perhaps taking a gift in for the person who will then ask me to give more than I was willing to when I woke up, is good preparation for what is to come.

Even if my future is not in Asia, I have no doubt that in some way this month has been the begining of my field training. MAN is that exciting! :)

At one point in the day I found myself singing “All Is Well” a Daniel Kirkley ‘update’ of the amazing hymn “It is Well With My Soul”

All is well, day is done
Purple skies, crimson sun
A whisper Gods still in control
All is well, with my soul

All is well, storms are gone
I’ve been tossed but life goes on
My prayers were heard
And your promise holds
All is well, with my soul

Dark winds blew
To temp and test
But Lord in You I find rest
I did not fear for You are Lord
You made it clear that I am Yours

All is well

All is well
For in Christ
Should some trial, it claim my life
At once I’ll stand
On streets of gold
All is well, all is well, all is well
With my soul


2010

January 1st, 2010

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It was pointed out to me a week or two ago, that my blog has not been updated in oh, awhile?! heh. It’s been some time.

I have begun a post 87 and a half times in my head, like I often do. Things just never seeemed to get to the keyboard. I either always felt like they were too insignificant to blog about, or too important to take only a few moments on, or just could not find the time to actually dedicate to a proper blog post. Well…then there is the laziness factor. Yep, sometimes I really have to say it just came down to being too lazy to post anything.

However, given that it is a new year, I thought it a good idea to at least show some life is left in my blogs, and post an update of some sort or another. Since it has been all the way since September since I last hit the “add new” button on these things, the 87 and a half test writes have all but melted from my brain!

So much has happened and changed since I got back to the States many months ago! So much, in fact, I really don’t even know where to start or what to say!

Perhaps the next 87 and a half times will actually make it into a blog!

Hope everyone had an awesome start to their 2010!!

Until next time….I’m out! :)


Then there were two {weeks}

September 6th, 2009

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My second two weeks at camp were just as breath taking as the first two, but in very different ways!

Thankfully my flights did not have much trouble and I made it to my next city with little problem. Of course, there was the fact that I did not really have to take that silly plane trip, but I didnt know that when I got the ticket! It would have been much cheaper, and probably faster {there were no tickets right to Xi’An from where I was, so I had to first fly past and go to another city, where I had to trade planes and then fly backwards to get where I was going.} for me to get a train. As it turns out, staff from the Xi’An camp had actually made the trip to Xin Zheng to spend the night and pick up kids at the local orphanage to bring them to camp at Xi’An. I could have traveled with them, had I known about it, but I am glad that I got where I did when I did, so it all worked out in the end.
Right away, I met the director of the Xi’An camp, as he was the one that came to the airport to pick me up. It was a nice ride to the camp. It was nice to have a chance to talk for a bit too. He gave me an idea of how camp was going at that location and I gave him a rundown of my first two weeks.
Soon as I walked into the hotel where we were staying, I was greeted by a “Are you Carm?” and when I answered yes, the asker said “Well, I just got a text from Becca she said to give you a hug from her, so here.” and I was then given a hug. I could have cried right then. It is rather interesting to look back once you have been through something, to relive the first moments. When I first met everyone there, just like at Xin Zheng, I could have not had any clue how much they would have all meant to me. They all did such a wonderful job of making me feel comfortable and back at home in the new setting.

For week three, I had a little boy named Liu Chong Yang. When I asked if he wanted an English name, he said yes so I asked if I could call him Louie. He said “You may call me Liu Chong Yang.” and anytime I gave another option he just repeated that I could call him his entire name. Heh. That week was a challenge for me. Out of all of them, it was the hardest one I had. Some of what made it a struggle is rather hard to put into words, or I just don’t want to because it sounds bad! It did not seem my translator liked me, our little boy, or much of anything other than her cell phone and room mate. It also turned out to be a really great week as far as teaching me things and lessons learned. The Lord really used that time to remind me I had some patience problems that I needed work on. On top of the communication problems I seemed to have with my translator, Chong Yang was sick for the entire week. The poor little guy came to us with a stomach virus of some sort, and also had a bad case of car sickness. Sadly, at this camp, we had to drive to any of our activities….so before we could go swimming, do pottery, or play at the fountain, we had to take a drive of no less than half an hour. The poor little thing would throw up almost the entire trip. He loved the pool though! I felt rather bad when I was unable to join him in the pool on the second visit due to things beyond my control, and had to ask a staff member to watch him for me. {My translator did not want to enter the pool again.} Thankfully, Chong Yang liked guys better and so I think it was a bit easier for the male staffer than it might have been for a girl….but he was still a handful! He was not a bad kid so much as one that really like to push the limits and in many cases he was a normal little BOY! If you have ever spent much time around an 8 year old boy, you know how much energy they have and can understand how it might be a bit hard to keep an eye on him when you are not able to call out and give advice or commands or such! :D It was fun though.

In week four I had a family of four again! My translator was such a cutie and she and I had such great conversations. She was a lot of fun. Our girls allowed me to give them English names so that it was easier for me to remember what to call them. {It is a suggestion that is given right away, and when Dora, our translator asked them if they would like English names both said yes.} Just like with Brooke,I asked them what they liked best, and what kind of a name they wanted. The older of the two said she wanted to be named something to do with winter. I had met an amazing Chinese staff member at my previous camp, whos name was Icey. It seemed perfect and I thought it would be cool to give her a name sake. The younger one said she liked the autumn time…..and of course you have a name right there so she became Autumn. I asked them if they would give me a Chinese name and they named me Xia Tian, which is Summer! :) As a family we had so much fun! They were both so well behaved and were very loving and open to being hugged and loved on! Good thing too since both Dora and I loved to pull them each into a big hug at times! Icey was such a big help too! Early on we could tell that she was the one that looked out for the younger kids, Autumn being one of them, and Luise {their room mate} being another one. She made sure that both girls had their shower taken care of, hair brushed, clothing in the right place for the next day, and all ready for bed in the proper manner and time! It was uncanny how much Icey reminded me of Brooke, everything from her motherly ways with the girls, even down to her looks! I often had to keep myself from calling her Brooke! One day, on the way back from lunch, I asked the girls if they liked ice cream. Icey {Who often spoke for the both of them, as Autumn was a bit mentally behind and did not say much.} said they liked ice cream and had eaten it before. I was a little saddened, I will admit, that it might not be as much of a treat as I had hoped {she made it sound like it was something they ate often, which I found a little strange, but you never know!} but I asked if they wanted to get some anyway. They both agreed and each picked out a different kind when we arrived at the corner store before heading inside to get to our next scheduled activity. After her first bite, Icey’s eyes got big and {through Dora} she told me she thought ice cream was something else, this she had never had! But she liked it a lot! It was cute.
Autumn did not speak much, but that does not mean she did not communicate! I grew very attached to her, very quickly, and found it very special when I was told it was believed she was part Indian {As in from India, not American Indian} I felt that God had given me my India right there in China! Soon, she began to mimic me and some of my ’silly’ actions. She would place her hands on her hips and pucker her lips the way I did when I was pretending to be upset with her throwing a ball too far away for me to reach. Often, after giving me this little gesture, she would break out into a huge smile and laugh, or say I love you in sign language. {Early on in the week I taught both girls what it meant, and told that was how I would be able to always make sure they knew I loved them, even if we were across the room from one another, or the music was too loud. It became one of our families favourite things to do.}
When we put them on the bus, saying goodbyes, and giving last hugs, both girls had the same reaction as the rest of my kids over the past three weeks. They seemed ok with going back, and did not cry at all or anything. After they got on, I went around to the back to stand near the window where Icey was sitting {She too had a bad case of car sickness and said it made her feel better to sit near a window.} it was then that it hit her, I think, that Dora and I were not coming with her and that she was leaving. She began to cry then, as she told us both she loved us and handed us balloons she had blown up. It took a long time to get the rest of the kids settled into their seats and ready for the trip, so we just stood there watching each other, holding hands through the window, and giving each other the English sign for I Love You. I am told she cried for most of the trip back to the orphanage.

I miss everyone so much now. As busy as work keeps me, I still find I have far too much time online! I am trying very hard not to be a nuisance to the friends that I made, and so I do not write to them as often as I want to! Lol. If it were up to me, I would talk to them all everyday still!

I miss my kids, and they come to my mind at odd points throughout the day. Something will remind me of them, or I hear their names, or I see a child that looks just like them. As much as that can make me sad, I hope that does not change. Both in the instance of the kids and the friends that I made. I want to stay in touch with everyone who became so important to me there, and I want to always have a love and longing for my kids in China. When I think about it becoming easier to live without everyone I met there…..it makes me more sad than when I realize most of them are hundreds of miles away from me right now! The Lord taught me so much through all of them!

I miss you all. I love you all.


Searching for words.

August 18th, 2009

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How do you sum up a month of memories, feelings, ideas, and experiences into a blog? This is what I have been struggling with since I returned home a little over a week ago. I have had a hard time getting it all across when I tell people about it, using the same words “It was amazing!” every time when asked how my trip was. That just does not cut it. I know I could do more than one blog post, but even in more than one I am just not sure how to express what it is I want to.

I have yet to ask my family if they have noticed it, but I feel I have changed.

Keeping up with my normal ways, I started a journal when I went and got about one week into camp before I stopped updating it.

Anyone that got my email updates knows my flight into the country of China was an eventful one, and not all happy. Yet as soon as walked into the cafe in Xin Zheng, at the SIAS school where I would spend the next two weeks, the entire past day and a half melted away….and I was home.

The first week, I had two girls. Maggie is nearly 18 and is such a smart kid. Annie, my 17 year old buddy of the week was such a sweetie. I was not sure how the week was going to go, having two girls not even 10 years my junior, and who both spoke English! It was a pleasant surprise to get along really well as a family, and find things that we could help each other with or learn from one another even though we were not the typical BMH family group. We became so close, in fact, that we gave our family a name. Angel, Maggie, Annie, and I called ourselves the Glory Family. It was also this week that I met little Jennifer. She was one of the roommates of my girls and translator, so I spent a lot of time around her as well that week. She stole my heart, along with the hearts of many others there!

Week two saw challenges of its own, but turned out to be no less of a blessing than week one. The story of my little Brooke broke my heart and made me want to do nothing but hug her all week. That was not possible at first, as she was not comfortable with that much contact right off the bat. At our very first meeting, it was decided that instead of hugging her every time I saw her, which would have been my first choice to show my affection, I would hold her hand. You can imagine then how wonderful it felt when, by the middle of the week, she was grabbing for my hand and as she looked up to give me one of her winning smiles. Her Chinese name is Wan Jun, but when I asked if she wanted an English name she asked that I pick one for her that had something to do with water. After choosing Brooke for her name, my translator told me that her {Alyson, my translator} Chinese name meant Spring. How perfect is it then that my name means garden/fruitful? Don’t those names fit perfectly? This week was really about the relationship with my translator, I think. We had an amazing long conversation after life charts one day. There were tears, lots of tears. It is something I am still in prayer over, and I’m looking forward to the program BMH has for keeping in contact with each other after. {It is set to start in a month or so and will give us topics to discuss and help us stay in touch, or at least open the door for you to start more.}

The staff at Xin Zheng, or the SIAS camp as I always called it, was fantastic! We had so much fun both with the kids and just as a group. We went on moped rides on the weekend, and hung out in the computer room, had wonderful conversations till early in the morning, and laughed a lot. When it was time to leave, I took it pretty hard.

Stay tuned for recaps of weeks three and four.


Few more pics

July 17th, 2009

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Things get pretty crazy here!

Jason has been very cool in putting up with things like this….me taking silly photos for no reason!

I want to keep him.

As I am previewing the photos in the post it looks like they are too big. I have yet to figure out how to do photos since the update on my site a few months ago. {have not tried to put pics up since then, and don’t have the time at the moment} Sorry they are too big. I am heading to bed right now…..and it is way too late at night for me to be able to resize them…hope you are still able to see them ok.