Carmella's Hang Out

Things have been going up and down the past few weeks. I really have not been down here on the computer much at ALL, and that is due to heat {it is nice to be outside when it is so nice} work, play, and Chris.

On my way home from work Wednesday, I was thinking about posting here in my blog and what the title should be. That is when “And then the check engine light came on” popped into my head. I had a really really bad day on the 15th. This is one of the first times with this job, that I can remember coming home, not wanting to talk to anyone, and going upstairs to my room to cry. Things with work did not get any better, though I have not yet been back. Does that seem possible? To be able to NOT be there and things get worse? Well, let me tell you. It is. Yesterday, our boss called David in to talk to him. We did not have a clear idea as to why she would be doing that, and I had to be at work {the Thursday cleaning job I have with Kade} at the same time as this meeting, so I had to wait till we got home to hear the details. Becky wanted to talk to him, to can him! David is doing alright with it all, though he is not for one minute happy with the situation. He was not thrilled with the job, but it was only suppose to be a temp thing anyway. When I first started there, we had another worker who had to be let go and so we were left a little shorthanded until July or August when someone who had applied for the job turned 18. {you must be at least that age to run the carousel. It was decided that this girl would start as soon as she came of age, but in the mean time we needed some help.} David said he would help fill the gap in the weeks by working the few hours we needed. This type of job is NOT Davids field, and i knew that as did my boss, and we all knew that David was taking it because he needed some money and we needed some help. Nothing more. Problem is, my boss has this bad habbit of FORGETTING things you tell her or she tells you,and so once again { as she has done with me} she thought this was David’s dream job and he would be there till the ends of time. You can read more about it on Davids blog, since he has done such a good job of writting it out. http://www.dhpersonal.com/june2005.html#61605b
Later in the day, she called me to see if I was going to quit since she had fired David. I told her that I would stay for now, which she for some reason repeated back at me, and I had to say “Yes, I will stay for now”. This is because she has yet to know that I have never thought I would stay here at this job much longer than our return from vacation! I did not want to fuel her idea that I am keeping this job as a career, but I also did not want her to think I was leaving right now, seeing as how I really need this money to keep my car and cell. I am worried about tomorow, as I must return to work and will be seeing my boss for the first time in over a week. She likes to talk about the other workers, and about so many other things I would MUCH rather not, and I am SURE she is going to want to talk about the situation with David, and I know she is not going to want to hear what I have to say. She figures since she does not have a good relationship with anyone in her family, and would never back any of them up, that I am the same way and must really want to gossip about my brother and say nasty things about him. It is like she is surprised when I support him and say that I think very highly of him and love him dearly. Guess 21 year old girls dont say that anymore about thier brothers, but that is just too bad for them. Lord, please help me hold my tounge when needed and say just the right things when I am suppose to. Help me keep my testemony even though I am so frustrated for both David and me.

To top everything as far as jobs go that day, when Tiff and I got to the house we clean that afternoon, we found a note that said there is a chance the family is moving to Texas for a new job. Meaning we will loose that job aswell! lol! Yesterday was not a good day for work!

After hearing all that, Kade and I took off to a near by village called Leonard. We use to live there many many years ago, and do not travel into that part often at all anymore. {after moving away from there where my dad pastored a chuch, we went through there on Sundays to get to a friends house for Bible Study. They have since left our group and we have not been out since.} Chris and her two sons have moved out there for this past week to stay with Tim’s grandmother who is not doing well at all. {It is Caleb and Josh’s Great Gramma who they therefore call G’G} Chris came home for like thirty minutes on Wednesday, but she has been gone since Monday afternoon, and we had not been able to see her when she stopped in at her house. We wanted to cheer her up, and ourselves as it turned out too, and so Kade got us some dinner to take to them over there. We got there just before six and stayed until eight thirty or so. It was alot of fun! We played out in the yard with the boys, helped them with the rock garden they have been working on, and also managed to pull a tractor and trailor out of the muck!! Yes ladies and gentlemen,,,,,,I Carmella, drove a tractor! Ok, so it was more of a riding lawn mower tractor……..but still!!! Kade took pics for ya’ll to show that I am not as much of a City-Gal as it has been believed in the past. {I will get that video tape out to you guys Vanny…..just as soon as I remember to finish it and change it into a format you can watch, and get it sent!! oy!} That was so much fun! We all got so muddy, Chris and Kade more than me, but I did have some dirt and grime stuck to me afterwards. The downside………I hurt so very bad today. My wrist is acting up again, and my back has had me laying down for most of the day. I think typing this is the longest I have spent in an upright postion all day. I stayed in bed till nearly noon so as not to burst into tears with movement. When I was finally able to pull myself out of my bed, I had to grab my brace and wrap it on. It has not left me since. Please do not tell Kade though, since she will think it is from the tiny bit of lifting I did before she and Chris could bat me away. Though I am pretty sure it was the driving to Leonard, the tractor driving {though oh how fun it was at the time} and who knows what else. I dont mean to complain, and I am sorry for ranting. ‘breathe,breathe’.

Ok. See I was sure that I had something else that I was suppose to tell you all about. Like actual good stuff, but at the moment, I can only think of downer stuff. Like the fact that my car is busted. So not totally busted, but halfway busted and is going to cost me money that I dont want to spend to FIX the halfway busted car that I own. Yeah. So. Cause see, I just turned on the TV so that I can watch the re-run of Gilmore Girls that is on at the moment….therefore my mind has gone away somewhere. I know where it is, it is in Sleepy Hollow with Lorelai, Rory and Luke. Guess I should end this now, because I can see only two other ways it is going to end. One of wich is me wallowing in the sorrows that are not as big as they seem when you are NOT wallowing in them. And the other way, is me going into a very Gilmore Girl like ramble speaking of things that I myself will not even understand once I have come out of whatever this funk is that I have discovered myself in.

Why do things seem so much darker once put into words? I can seem like such a dramatic and dismal “life stinks” kind of a person in these blogs.

With that I bid you Farväl, hoppas vi ses snart!! I miss you all!!

OH! BTW. I moved the tea party over to here, so that we can all continue the fun. “calling Marilla,Dianna,Katie M, and Miss Stacey”!!!! Welcome back to tea!!