Carmella's Hang Out

Home from a up down day at work, and really at this moment never want to go back. Not that it was THAT bad of a day, but I am just really getting fed up with this place. I feel bad for saying that, cause I know that both my brother and Dad are dealing with things tons more stressful and aggravating than I, but I still feel that way. Too bad I ‘get’ to go back tomorrow at 2 and do it all over again….then once again on Monday. *sigh*

If you will allow me a bit of ranting freedom……:I often feel myself a people person. I do like people much of the time. One of the things about this job that saddens me is the lack of a team with which to work. Yet….there are times at the carousel, that I really cant stand people. Honestly. Me! But, if I were to list the things that bug me most about the problems I have at work, it may come off as petty.

My sister made a post on a board, after hearing the question on the Miss America Pageant, ‘What are some of your pet peeves’. I have found even more these days, that one of my biggest pet peeves, is slow people. By this, I am not speaking of the mentally disabled, or being rude to those with legit reasons for being slow. No. I mean those people that have every ability to be just as fast….or even normally sped, people, but make it their lot in life to be as slow, idiotic, and needy/greedy as they can possibly be. I don’t like slow.

As much as this job gets to me, I guess my feelings are not all based on what has happened this week at work. Once again, I got my heart set on something and had it fall through. I need to stop considering myself a shoe in for jobs. That cant lead to good things. Today, in the mail, I got another one of the dreaded rejection letters that I so LOVE getting. This one was from the YMCA.

“Dear Carmella,

Thanks for the interest you have shown in the position at the North Oakland Family YMCA. We appreciate the time you took filling out an application.

We have made a sincere effort to carefully assess your interest, background and experience and have regretfully concluded this position is not a good match for your skills and abilities.

Please do not interpret our decision as a reflection of your qualifications. We hope you are successful in obtaining the type of position you are seeking, where you can use your abilities to the best of their advantage.

Thank you for considering the North Oakland Family YMCA as a prospective employer. We wish you success in your career endeavors.”

It seems like there were so many things that I had said I would look into or do after finding out what happened with the Y, and yet, now I cant remember any of them, or I just don’t care right now. Feel like all the wind has gone out of my sails. I may feel better later in the week, but right now I just don’t know what to do. I guess it was one of those things that I was ‘pretending’ to plan around, but thought there was really no need to make any other plans.

My cousin Rachel said on the phone today {Yes. the new Mrs Frank called me! YAY!!} “Maybe God has something better planned for you….actually, I know He does. It is a good thing you did not get that. Don’t worry, you were not suppose to.” *hugz to Rachel*

I do know this. Really. And I know I will be fine soon. But today, I am smarting from the sting of being told no once again. It all goes back to the ‘What are you trying to tell me God, if its not what I thought it was?’

The other day, I was praying for something to do. Something to say was my project. Something I could take pride in, and have a real purpose. In light of all that has gone on today, I think it is a good idea, and am glad that I asked God about it before the letter came in. Though I will try not to get my heart set on it, this is something that I am going to try and find a place to do it, even if the first place does not work out. On Monday, I am going to walk down to the a home for the elderly, that is just down the street. Once there, I will ask them if they have a volunteer program, or in need of anyone to come in once a week and visit with the residents. If they don’t, then I am going to look into doing some type of that kind of work at a local hospital. {it is a few miles down the road, but not the one at which my Dad works.} I had thought about the hospital first, because I really would love to be able to go visit a cancer ward or something for little ones. To be able to make them smile would be the best thing ever. But I don’t know if that is something I am ‘qualified’ to do. Mum suggested going to the home first, since it is something I have wanted to do since I was really little. I am looking forward to looking into it, but as I said, trying not to get my heart set on it.

I get next weekend off! Praise The Lord!! I know for sure that I get Saturday off, and do  not know for sure yet that I have Sunday, but it is my week to have it, so I am guessing I will. I am not all that big on football, but I think I shall have to watch, since it is taking place not too far from me.

Thanks for listening to me rant. I hope it was not too boring.

The Lord is good, this I do know.

“How refreshing to know You don’t need me. How amazing to find that You want me!!!”-Casting Crowns-