Carmella's Hang Out

Today, I put in my two week notice. My boss already knew I was leaving, cause I gave her advance warning on Thursday that I would bring in notice today. Last Tuesday I told her I was going to be leaving soon, but I was not sure what day exactly. She asked that I tell her before giving my two week, cause she wanted to see if she could ask for a bonus for me. I think it may have been a way of perhaps getting me to stay a bit longer, but if I can still get the bonus, I’ll take it! lol I also asked if I was able to get my vacation time cashed in {we don’t get vacation in days off, we get vacation hours in pay. You earn your vacation hours, then when you want them, cash them in onto your next paycheck. I have at least over three hours in vacation time, so I would like to use that! I’m not sure, but I may even have more since I just hit my two year mark, we’ll see.}

It has just gotten to the point where, as much as I really hate to admit it, I can’t take the job anymore. I really do enjoy it for the most part, and the cute kids and nice parents make up for the stupid people, bratty kids, and parents who don’t make their kids mind. {At least most of the time they make up for it!!} I really love the fact that, because I have this job, I have been able to have my ‘ministry’ with letter writing. Because of the slow days, I have been able to write at least ten letters a week most weeks. I like the fact that I am able to do it, and as I already alluded to, have been looking at it as my ministry. Writing to friends to try and be an encouragement, writing to soldiers, writing to family. It has been great. But at the same time, all that sitting in chairs that are not all that great, does a number on my back. Plus, the jumping out to save a kid when they or the parent does something stupid does not do anything for my health!

When I was at therapy yesterday, I was talking with my therapist about what kinds of jobs I could actually do. {Sarah, if you don’t want to read this its ok…..I wrote you a letter, of course, today at work…and I have told you most of it in that. So if you don’t want to be reading old news! lol!!!} I let her know I was leaving my job, and she was rather surprised, it seemed, that I was going to quit one job without having another one lined up. A very common and not a bad worry I know! lol But, I felt leaving now was the right thing to do, and the rest would come later.

I asked her what kinds of jobs I could do. Told her how we had been talking here at home about how the number of good jobs that I can actually work, is very low. She got a rather sad look on her face, and said “Yeah, theres allot you can’t do anymore!!”

Here is what she said: No lifting, can’t sit for too long, need something where I can move often and not be stuck in one position for long. No bagging, no cashiering, no food service….pretty much anything I have ever done before. She said a video store might be a good place to look. But then, she also said that I should start out small. She does not think I would be able to handle eight hours a day right off the bat {and it seems my doctor agrees, since he was surprised I was working at all, but was ok with it as long as it was short hours.}

I do have one job idea up my sleeve though. One that I really, really, really, REALLY want. In the past, you have heard me say I have two therapists right? And at one point, I think, I mentioned that one was not an actual therapist, but it was easier to say it that way? Well, one is a PT the other is a PTTA. A PTTA is a Technical Assistant. They do the heat, the stym, traction set up…anything with the electrical or plug in things. They are the ones to set up allot of that stuff {even though insurance now is saying the PT has to be the one to push the on button, they still set the patient up on it} and the clean up of the office at the end of the day.

See, a few weeks ago, I was praying and told God that I would love to have that job. I said “It would be wonderful God, if, like with what happened last February at Meijer, could happen again here. I would love to be at PT today, and, when I ask A how much school it took to do her job, to have her answer ‘Oh, its all on the job training! Hey, you know, we are looking for new workers!’ That would be wonderful then I would know I am suppose to try out for that job.” A few days later at PT, A and I were talking and I said “Do you like your job?” to which she replied “I LOVE it!!” “How long did you have to go to school for it?” and get this….do you know what she said? “Oh, its all on the job training!” *Shock*!!! I said a little prayer of thanks, and pushed a little more: “Do you know if, by any chance, this office is looking for more people?” Not only did she say she thought they were, she first went right then to her supervisor to ask him if he knew, and then said that she was also going to call the person in charge of training to ask him! The next day at my PT, she had a number for me to get in contact with the woman in charge of hiring!

I have been SO very excited, and trying not to be though! I don’t want to be completely crushed should I not get it. That is why I have not said anything before now. However, now that I have sent in my notice, and I will be done working as of the 22nd of this month…..I am hoping you will all pray that I get whatever job it is the Lord has in store for me, even if it is not this one.

Due to more of a tax return this year than I had even hoped to dream of, I will be set for a few months, should I not get a job right away. In the next few days, however, I am going to be calling to see if I can get an interview set up for the therapy position.

Though my training would be at many different clinics, I want to work at the clinic that has become my ’second home’ over the past two months! I love the staff, and I just have such a wonderful time there, I am sure it would be a blast to work there!!! I kid you not, I laugh so much when I am there!! I also think it would be good motivation for me to keep up my PT here at home. Seeing my therapist all the time at work, knowing that if I ’seize up’ or gain weight, she will know….that would be a pretty good reason to not ruin all that we have accomplished over the past eight weeks!!

Today was kinda a rough day for my family! Not because of any one thing really, it was just not ‘our day’. David was in pain at work, so he didn’t have a good day. His knees have been bothering him for some reason, and I wonder if it has to do with his back condition also. Today, his back was hurting as well.

I began to feel bad about leaving my job. I had just written my notice out, and made a copy of it, when I started to get ‘all weepy’ about leaving. I don’t like to quit my jobs, though I like it much better than having to be fired {though I have never been…I just know I would!} it sometimes feels like failure to me. I told Mum tonight that I think God played a trick on me! If I was going to feel sorry for myself, He was going to remind me all the reasons I didn’t want to stay. I had some of the crankiest kids, non-thinking parents, and the kind of day I don’t like {it was not busy, but not dead. It was kinda steady, but by steady that means that every three minutes I had one or two riders…..the ride is only three minutes, so the ride was almost always in motion! It is better for me if I am busy, then slow, then busy, then slow….back and forth. I had to laugh later in the night, and I said “I know I am suppose to leave”. Then I got my letter finished and had some time to breathe!! }

Mum and Kade went to a meeting tonight for our neighborhood. Mum was running for the board, something she has done in past years. She has lost every other time, sadly, and sometimes by only three votes. One year, the man she lost to was on the board already {his term was up, but there is no limit to how many terms one person can serve. That is why we have many of the same people who were on the board for the past 20 years} well, the man she lost to, had something else he had to be at, and he did not even show up….so she lost to an empty chair!! This time, the president of the board called her awhile ago and asked that she run. Sadly….once again, she was beat. There were four people up for election, and she came in fourth! OUCH. She says she is ok with it though, and knows that God didn’t want her on the board.

PLUS:

Dad was hit big time with a case of vertigo! He has been recovering from a bad head cold, and even had to take days off of work for that, and now he will have to take off days from work for this. He can not move without {not for the weak gaggers….like me} throwing up!! I guess it hit him shortly after Mum left for the meeting with Kade, so it was just him and David here, with the kids all in bed. Don’t know how long this will keep a hold on him. I have not been upstairs for awhile, so I don’t know if he has been able to move yet or not.