Carmella's Hang Out

I have been adding more music from my CD collection, to my MP3 player today. It is cool how just listening to some of these older songs has reminded me of things I have not thought of in forever.
A song from A*Teens plays, and I remember meeting Cass and Oms at the fan site. That was around seven years ago. It makes me smile. They are now both happily married and we don’t talk all that much, though when we can we are still in touch.
Oddly enough, hearing a song sung by Tyler Wilkonson {well, at least the ones from when he was singing with his sister and Dad.} reminds me of roller blading! Now there is a fun memory. The first time I listened to an entire tape of that family singing group, I was out on my blades, back and forth in front of the house.
Some songs remind me more of years, rather than a specific memory. Most, if not all, make me smile and bring back good thoughts and snapshots of the past.

I had a really cool week, followed by a rather crummy week. Thing is, each week was made good or bad, pretty much by one day!

My good week was the countdown and final realization of my first NHL game. It really meant so much to me to be able to go and watch the team play, and to do it with both my sister and Dad! I had SO much fun, and my only regret, if you wanna call it that, is that I was not able to scream a little louder for my guys. {Due to the area which we were in, it was thought best that we keep our non-home team spirit quiet so as not to be harmed in anyway by rabid Red Wings Fans} Not even the near anaphylactic reaction I had as we left, put a damper on the fun I had that night and the excitement that I still carry!! Yup, face it people. I am a hockey fan through and through. Never thought myself as that kind of person, though I often wanted to be, I was much happier being into a sport like gymnastics. My love of that sport has changed little as I grow older, but I have found it has gotten harder to follow and am very happy that I have found a new sport in which to pour so much time!

My bad week was brought to a head by an $80 bill at Walgreens for two of my monthly medications! There were many things that had been building up in me for the last little bit, and that was enough to send me over the edge and take the pin from the flood gate latch. After forking over the cash at the pharmacy, and a tear filled drive home, I stepped through the front door to {thank you Lord} both of my parents sitting in the living room.

For the next hour or so, I cried, they listened, and then helped talk me back into a stable state of mind. Funny how a large medical bill can lead to thoughts of a stagnant life, dying dreams, failure, loss of use….and other hopeless scenarios. However, for me, the money being spent on my health seemed to speak to much more than just that I am sick {and started to get tired of finding out more.} but also to things like what I am to be doing, what I am not suppose to do {with my life and future} it reminded me of things I have yet to accomplish and things I will never be able to.

The next day I was really tired, and it was more mentally tired than physically. The talk I had with my parents did a lot to help get me back in the right mind set, and to get me feeling back on track more. However, there are still things I am working through.

All in all though, I am happy. That is something I think I need to mention now and then, heh. So often I think I come off as sad, or disappointed, or melancholy. Yes, there are somethings I am not so happy WITH, but I am still happy as a whole.

Music….good for you….heh.