Carmella's Hang Out

It is not just this blog….I have not been updating any of my blogs as of late. I have really not been in the mood!

My letters have been very lacking as well. Not sure why, other than a lot of ’stuff’ going on emotionally, and it has taken me out of the ‘keeping in touch’ mood?

David has just spent his first full day in his new place! We are all very proud of him, though he has already been missed greatly by everyone! I did pretty well all day yesterday, which was when he left. I had to say goodbye to him the night before because I was going to be at work when he got up and left Michigan. My worry had been that my day was going to be really poopy, fighting back tears the entire time I was at work. However, I held it together very well and did not cry the entire time I was there. It was not until just before I went to bed, when I sent him a text to say goodnight. I burst into tears when I got his text back. Guess it had kinda sunk in then…..he really is gone. Knowing me, that is not going to be the only time I do that, but I am happy to report it is not all the time. Like I said, I miss him a great deal, but I am still so happy for him and that is helping.

I contacted the group {Bring Me Hope} about going to China, and have been given the “Green Light” from them! My health conditions will not get in the way of me going! PRAISE THE LORD!! Already, I have the money saved for my passport, and my plan is to get that VERY soon. Once in hand I am sure that I will be even more excited than I already am. And that is hard to believe, since I have been pretty geeked about it as it is! Savings for that is going very well, as I have drawn up a budget that looks doable and will give me some extra ‘oh no’ money should something go wrong. {did I mention that already in a post before?}

I was asked by my boss to watch his cat while he was away for the weekend getting married. That went really well!! It was not only a cool thing for me, to be asked and trusted with that, but also because I am allergic to cats and this gave me the chance to ‘test’ the shots I have been getting! lol. As you can see, I lived through it, and in fact had very little problem with it at all, so I can see the shots are doing some good! I have a visit with my allergist coming up near the end of the month, when I hope and pray that he tells me I do not have to get these shots every week anymore. I have now been on the same dose for six months with no problems reported {I have VERY sore arms after every injection day, and they swell really big. However, since the nurses never seemed to show much care about that, I stopped telling them. I do not want to risk having to get these weekly any longer than needed!! So I just deal with that part of it.} which they told me was what I had to do before they could let me reduce the frequency of the shots. When I go, I am going to ask his thoughts on the China trip. What I should do in the way of prepping for it, what I should take with me {other than the duh things, like my epi, inhaler, benadryl, and such.} and if he knows of anything I should look out for over there.

I also have to talk to him about the possibility that I am becoming allergic to milk. NOOOOO!!! Yes, sadly it is true. Starting today, I did my own control test and it seems that I may have a problem with the creamy white goodness, a fact that makes me very sad. For now,it only looks like it is a certain time of the day that I will need to stay away from it. In the hopes that it will not spread to the rest of the day, I am happy to cut it out of those hours!

Even as far back as working at Meijer, I have often had a surge of what I have come to call my “Morning Sickness”. To detail the symptoms of my early day woes, described very closely the symptoms suffered by a woman for the first few months of her pregnancy. I will spare you all the icky details, but suffice it to say it is not pretty, nor is it fun. Seems to hit me most if I wake up earlier in the morning {and by this I mean before 7 or 8} and do not eat something within the first 10 or 15 minutes. I had found that if I caught it right away, got something to eat before it became too bad, then the pain and problems went away pretty quickly. However, in the last month not even that has been working. Every morning I would wake up to find my illness nagging at me within the first 1o minutes of my awakeness. Thinking it would work, I made sure to always eat my cereal as soon as I had dressed and made my bed, the rest of my prep work could wait. Long story short, this week I noticed that the pain got worse instead of better on the mornings that I had more milk in my bowl then cereal, causing me to have to drink a great deal of milk in the end. While it does not last ALL day long, mornings at work with all of the smells {which cause a great deal of nausea} and fast moving required to serve 100+ people their morning coffee {which brings on dizziness and ‘punch to the gut’ kind of feelings} are not always the most fun thing to deal with! I have found that having mints with me help to keep the ‘toss my cookies’ feeling at bay. Yet, needing to suck on two and three in one hour can get a bit old!

Today I decided to try NOT having milk before work, to test it and see what happened. I woke up still with the same icky feeling soon waking up as well, but eating something different did in fact mean that I was not sick much longer after I made it to work. It had cheese in it though, so I am going to try and cut as much dairy out of my morning as I can, and will not be eating that again either! {I am also unable to eat eggs, so that is not an option unfortunately.} With some of the other things to which I am allergic, small amounts do not cause me problems….I am just careful how and when I eat them. That is how I will treat the milk thing as well. Milk is a favourite for me, and I would hate to have to give it up, so I am going to be as careful as I can to not over do its consumption so that I can have it for longer! hee. Mum figures one of two things will happen for me. Once I do suffer from true, honest to goodness morning sickness either,I will be so use to it that it is NOTHING for me….or all of the internal problems I have had over the years is a show of just how bad it is going to be! lol

That shall be all for now. I will write again when I come up with something of interest.

Love you David. Miss you! See you in a year, eh? Talk to you soon.

Every bodies wondering how the world could get this way
if God is good then how it could be filled with so much pain
its not the age old mystery that we made it out to be
theres a problem with the world
the problem is me.
So Ill find the closest mirror
thats where the offender is hiding
so grand is my need for a redeemer
I can not trust myself
so I’ll trust in someone else
The sooner you can sing along
the sooner you can sing this song
the happier we’ll be